My mother came to visit me last week, and we had a lot of fun (our version of fun being long walks, good food and meditation retreat!).
When she left, I thought I would jump on my easel, being so rested and refreshed. Turns out I got a little rusty! Mostly, I felt the pressure of not having painted for over a week...what should I do? I had the pull of doing "something productive" - meaning finishing the 3 paintings I had started...or finally make this Flower of Life tutorial that I had promised.
Even in art there is a schedule and a to-do list it seems...that didn't feel good!
So I did what I would usually feel veryyyy guilty for doing: instead of "grinding", I went out and popped in the Apple store "just to check out things" (in case you didn't know I'm a total geek on top of being an artist). Of course once I checked out the new Ipad Pro, I wanted it baaaad. So I ended up taking one "just for a trial", with the firm intention of bringing it back before the end of the 14-day trial period...
I haven't been able to put it down or stop thinking about it since.
It's quite unconventional approach to getting the work done, I admit. In the past I would have stuck to "pushing through the resistance"... but today, I'm tired of pushing through. So I'm wondering if maybe...maybe...there is another way. If maybe following my heart completely and trusting it's guiding me to where I'm meant to go, would get the job done as well (if not better), with more fun, joy and relaxation.
We'll see. I'm telling my head it's just a short trial, so my mind doesn't freak out and pulls the emergency brake. #thuglife :-)